Flying fish room [private conversation]

[onlydisappear]

[Matt's wandering again, smoking, of course, half keeping an eye out for Mello and half wondering if there's a room that might give him his memories back without severely traumatizing him in the process. When he spots the fish floating around in midair, he can't resist going into the bar.

And this is neat, and clearly one of the rooms not designed to fuck people over. He looks around, puffing on his cigarette, and doesn't notice the other person there at first. Finally he does, gives a small double-take at the hair, and waves.]

Oh, hey.

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Yes. I do remember it, though only specific bits.

(He sounds very calm about it, actually.)

Ahah. I've never actually made out with myself. Most of the versions of me are either prudes or in a relationship. And I'm in a relationship, too, so I can't really go around looking.

(He laughs a little.)

Oooh, ouch. That sounds painful. The mansion sucks sometimes.

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I didn't even know my name when I got here. That's not normal, is it?

Well, that was before- I mean. I kinda met someone I like a lot. [He sips his beer and smiles vaguely.]

I guess it was a room that gave me the fake ones, but it did it all sneakily.

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... No, it's not normal. As far as I know. Then again, not many people die and come here. Most of them come from the middle of a regular day.

I figured. That's normal. I met someone that I like a lot, too, here.
(Stirs his martini with a finger, smiling, too.)

Really? I've never been in that room, I don't think.
Good thing.

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And I kinda- [He lights another cigarette and spins it around between his fingers.] -know facts about my life, and shit, but I don't really remember them. Not as if they happened to me.

Hey, that's great, man. What's... he? Like?

It really does a number on people.

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That's odd. I've never really heard of a case like that before. You're saying you know what happened to you, but you don't feel like you've experienced it, right?

Yes, he. I always find it funny that people know I'm a homosexual right off the bat.
(A bit of a dreamy look crosses his face at this, though.)
His name's Elle. He's wonderful, really.
You know, I lied earlier, that I've never made out with myself. I always forget that Elle is another L. Heh.

Sounds that way.

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Exactly. It feels, like, far away, still.

The hair's a tiny clue. [He grins.] I'm bi, myself. Which has turned out to be awfully good, here.

Is he from one of those worlds without Kira?

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Huh. I don't know what to tell you, Matt. I'm sorry. I wish I could help more.

(But he does laugh at the hair comment.)
It usually is.
Turned out to be a good thing? Why's that?

No, his world has a Kira, but...
You know about Wammy's and the title of L, right? He's working for that title, and grew up at Wammy's. It's an interesting world.

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Oh, no worries. I'll remember when I'm ready to, yeah?

Heh. [Blushing again and sipping at his almost-empty beer.] That person I like? I met her as a girl, but he's usually a guy? And we. Um. Both ways.

Huh. That's weird. I was at Wammy's, I remember bits of it. But our L was always, you know. L.

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Positive thinking. I like that.

(He laughs.)
I see. That's actually sort of sweet. You know, love trancends all boundaries and such.
... Actually, you know, don't listen to me. I'm actually a hopeless romantic is disguise. Especially when I'm drunk.

(Chuckling, he sips his martini, as if emphasizing his point.)

Mmhm. Obviously, that's how it was for me, as well. Though I doubt your L was quite as flamboyant as I am, don't you think?

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No sense worrying about it, y'know?

Oh, it's not- I mean, "love" is kinda- I just like her. Him. Whichever.

I don't think I ever met L. But I have this vague memory of a voice on a computer. And Mello talked about him a lot.

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True.

Well, no. But the saying doesn't sound quite as good if it goes "Like trancends all boundaries," hm?

Oh, so your L was a distant one.
I grew up with my Matt, Mello, and Near.

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We barely- Haha, yeah. For the sake of poetry, or whatever.

I think so. I mean, it's all, like, guesswork. But being around versions of you doesn't make me remember as much as being around Mellos.

You did? What're they like?

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Ahah, you make it sound like a great sacrifice. "It's for science, I swear!"

(Why yes, he is a little tipsy.)
Of course. Most Matts and Mellos have stronger bonds than Ls and Matts do. I don't know why, but.

I did, yes.
They're smart. Just like any other Mello and Matt, only they know me, and they're around fourteen.

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[And the blush is back, because that reminds him of something.]
Yeah. Science.

[He looks into his empty glass, frowns, and refills it. He might be getting a little tipsy too.]
I was with him, almost to the end. I'm sure of that. He's like... my brother. Or. Not quite, but you know. "See you on the other side," he said, and he wanted me to believe it.

[He shrugs, one-armed, and feels in his pocket for his cigarettes.]

So you're, like... How old are you? Ha, it's weird how the versions of you are so young.

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(He grins at the sight of the blush, but doesn't comment.)
Heh.

That-- that sounds like something my Mello would say, yes. You two are inseperable in my world.

(He reaches for another bottle; anything, just to keep this lovely buzz.)

I'm twenty-five. No, that's a lie. I'm twenty-six. Just recently. Though I don't know if I can age now that I'm-- you know. Dead.

(Snorts.)

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[He lights his cigarette and thinks for a moment as he puffs. If anyone would understand, Pink probably would.]
Are we? I mean, they? Hm. You ever been in that room that makes you tell everyone your problems?

Guess we'll find out, yeah?
[Pink seems more amused about it than anything else, so Matt smiles too, and lifts his glass to him.]

[justiceishot.livejournal.com]

Mmhm, ever since Mello came to the House, they've been partners in crime.
And yes, actually, I have been in that room, why?

Guess so.

(He raises his bottle, clinks it against Matt's glass lightly, and takes a sip. But he makes a face, then laughs.)

Whoa. That one has a kick to it.

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I, um. It made me say I might've. Kinda sorta been in love with my Mello. But. I was never gonna do anything about it, I don't think.

[Matt shakes his head, then grins in return.]
Yeah, drinking it straight up'll do that. I can make you another if you want.

[justiceishot.livejournal.com]

Heh, that's not surprising, honestly. My Matt and Mello are the same way. Nothing happened until they arrived here, though. It's cute, but sort of odd. I think of them as little brothers, so it's--

(He pauses, and blinks, forgetting the word. Tipsy!Pink.)

... incest-y. That's the word. But not really.

No, no, I like it this way. I haven't been drunk in months, and this is the easiest way.

(Grinning.)

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Nah, I get what you mean. That's cool, though. [He looks into his glass thoughtfully.] It can get like that, I think. When you rely on each other a lot.

I can't remember the last time I got drunk. [He says it just as an expression, then laughs. A lot.] Ha, the irony.

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Good, good. But yes, I agree, it's... never been like that, for me. Not until I came here. I've never really...

(Another pause, and a swig from the bottle. When he's finished that, he's grinning, unlike moments before.)

Hee, yeah, that's like... funny. Ahah... hahah.
(He giggles, and chews his finger absently.)

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Mmhm. [He's getting rather tipsy himself.] From what I know of L, I can't see him as having time for that sort of thing. Shame, really, but he was, like, important and shit. Kind of above it, y'know? But it's good to have time for stuff.

[Matt laughs along with Pink, and hey, his beer's getting empty. He refills it again.]

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Important, yes. It was-- something lonely, I think. But that's okay, I have stuff here, now, and... and stuff.

(He lays back on the counter, sprawled on it, grinning. He tends to go into a bit of a La La Land when he's drunk, and this is no exception.)

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Yeah, lonely... It's not of the good. I was lonely for a while, I think. In New York. And in this, like, fake world this place stuck in my head? All alone.

[He sighs, and sips his beer.]

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Yeah, this... yeah.

(He agrees in a daze. His gaze shifts over to Matt, where he stares for a minute.)

Hey-- you... you're okay, though, right? Like, could I help you with anything?